Cancer Sucks!!

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We have found out my sweet hubbies cancer came back and he has brain cancer and his Mantel cell non Hodgkin  lymphoma  came back double whammy!!! Today one of his daughters came today i do feel for them . They have only seen him like 3 times in 6 yrs they do talk by phone . He married me almost 5 yrs ago they were ok with me being his girlfriend only . He and his wife divorced after many years of marriage . I met him 8 yrs after his divorce. Well one came today and i asked her could she stay with him for 20 minutes while i went to get gas for my suv for tomorrow..  My mom comes to watch my hubbie and i go to town to get few things done . I came back and she was bringing him inside from our work shop!! he was out in 92 degree weather and he cant walk alone with out walker now and he was sweating and our steps  on deck don’t have rail!! I said why ??? She said he wanted to go out . I told  her he could fell down .. She said she call 911 if she called 911 and not hospice . Then hospice will be null and void with us. Hes not allowed outside due to his stability this woman is 42 yrs old shes no kid !!! could of waited for me to return back .. I was only gone under 20 minutes !!!

Sigh !!! I never leave him alone  with her . I’m with him 24/7 im beyond tired mentally . She brought her grown kids ( which im glad i like them) but ..brought 3 min pins

( miniature pinchers  )Leave damn dogs home its only 2 hr trip here . One daughter brought he huge dog too  ( 2 days ago ) i told them to leave them on porch . I do have a dog i do put up when people come as courtesy . Ok im ranting and raving hugs all remember to love each other  Time is preciousness

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Morning . There is so many sad things happening in United States its breaking my heart. This isn’t what should be happening . I’m not going to get on my soap box  With that this morning . I did photo last night and wasn’t happy with it and rushed up stairs to do another. I am OCD with my photos . Is why i cant do but one a day to post  not like most do 2 3 4 ect a day . I’m on a 4 yr old laptop i bought it for SL when i was working at Big Daddy’s club with my second life hubby ( he was Sr DJ and i a Host we worked there for 6 yrs he is first Dj when they opened yrs ago) ( he has pasted away 3 yrs this upcoming January . It has 16 gigs good for crowed events ,  but for photos not so much ! I’m not a graphic designer.

One of my paint programs is ending in December due to its on flash player 😦  Sigh i need to find new one ( i have 2 already that came with my laptop ) That one i use just to tweek it . If you know of any good EASY ( For slow learning old ladies let me know lol ) Even though i have been in second life since day it was in Beta .. I know a lot about the game but i know not tons about blogging as you can see lol . I know there are people that awe me how wonderful they are I know i wont ever be on that level and im fine with that im to old to be jealous lol !! Ok you all have good Thursday and be safe !!

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Morning .. I hope we All are doing well. I worry about This damn virus all time. I try not to . I work from home It keep my mind busy !! . We have home business believe me we are still busy. We are are a seasonal business.  Our business is Boat Canvas work.

Vinyl seating for boat seats every type of boat. T- Tops for boats. Covers for boats ( which have zippers) We do awnings for business and porches . Rv seating . We are only one around until 45 miles . We live on Chesapeake Bay this is a Boat town for sure !! Our business picks up in End of March ..

We have been busy !! You can go boating even though were on lock down .. If its just your self in bay !! .. We have them drop off items in front of our  our fence to our business out back. and we put it back there again once its done . If  we work on a boat hands on .. its docked with out any one around . Ok ive gone on and on . Take care be safe !! Hugs

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Is 5 o’clock Some Where !

Is 5 o'clock Some Where !

Morning all !!! Are we playing it safe still?!!! I hope so .. I want to see my followers and Ones i follow names and not worry about them. I haven’t left house in 3 weeks!! Hubbie had to leave due to our sweet baby girl ( cockapoo Pumpkin) had a seizure and he took her to vet they met him at car  he handed her off on her own and she went to them he sat in car for 3 hrs blood work x ray’s urine ect. They couldn’t find anything wrong with her.

Thank goodness . To tune of $ 450.00..Shes worth it . Vet said it could be fluke one time thing but could come back .  Omg i have been ordering my groceries offline it has been only one day  waiting or getting that day. We live in small town of 5,000 now its taking 5 days when i hit apply !! means every one in town must be doing same thing . Its only grocery store in town except for little gas station grocery stores. We have 6 double rolls of tolit paper left which is like 12 regular ones. ( Which is good ) Im not going to walmart its 23 minutes away not worth it . I have plenty of food . I need paper towels tolit paper and few odds and ends we have enough food in our big freezer and in our big fridge with bottom freezer take care hugs all

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Gold Nugget

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Morning … Hubbie has gone for his after chemo scan this morning ..  Im little worried but that is normal .  I have to deliver few seat cushions this morning to few boats for our business to keep me busy. I wish this cancer thing was behind us . But it will never be .

I haven’t been into blogging lately. I’m not going to quit . I have cut back a lot . Its only reason I’m still in second life after 15 yrs. My second life hubbie of 6 Yrs died 2 yrs ago. I tend to stick to my self a lot . I never did like having a friends list of 100s I always kept it simple. I have trust issues and my circles are small . My dearest friend that got me in Second life left 5 yrs  ago her and i started out in beta. We had second lifes first wedding venue & photography ! Which i knew nothing about lol . ( avies were just ugly then lol ) My other bestie of 5 yrs logs in every 3 to 4 months for little while and shes gone we do stay in contact by RL  facebook .

Would i like a friend .. Yeah and no lmao!!!  I dont have to worry about drama this way lol  i have large parcel of land 2 of us only on the sim ( 2 plot)s  I do park a lot during day due to my rl work from home. Its hard to find a ( Real person) for a friend . I laugh at few one month some is their bestie and they talk daily for few month and then they move to next flavor ( friend ) of the month . I just laugh and let them move on . I don’t beg for friendship and never will . My theory is .. Trust is earned not given.

My take on Second life since beta makes me probably more cynical ! You all have a most wonderful Friday !!! have great weekend .

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Winter Chill

Winter Chill

Morning .. Its Monday again.. Seems Weekend went really fast!! I had taken 2 days from blogging . I just parked in SL with screen minimized and did some book work for our home business in RL  faxed few things and ect.

I have a client bringing their boat here some time today so we can work on their cushions . You think this time of year would be dead. Most are getting good look at their cushions ( seating ) If they get it now they will be ahead .. Due to spring summer is our busy time.

You all have a most wonderful day hugs !!!

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Christmas Eve Day

Christmas Eve Day

Morning all. I had my company Sunday and they left yesterday . My daughter and gran kids and son in law. Funny how grown kids are ! My daughter has issues i’m pretty sure they been married 15 yrs and 3 kids. They were bit stand offish. ( Not like them )

My son had said he and his wife would be here for Christmas . I have yet to pin point them for time or day during holidays . My daughter said she was going to my sons today to drop her  grandma ( her dads mother) to my son. for the day . I was told he only had one day off by his wife and it was Christmas day and hes off today & Tomorrow.

His wife ( daughter in law ) told me they get back to me that was last Wednesday. This is unlike them also. I’m beginning to not be fond of Christmas. My real life has cancer and he finally told me his bill so far is 10,000 dollars uninsured and it will keep adding up.  and We don’t have that lmao !!! gawd i told him i didn’t want lien on our house . CANCER I SO HATE YOU !!!! FU CANCER LOL Take your money and his life. Its been hard to be on a happy face. His numbers are great but the out come of surviving Non Mantel cell Hodgkin lymphoma

Its a fast moving spreading cancer. The survival rate is only 18 months 😦  So blogging is my outlet. ok all lets get this up and out hugs Have a Merry Christmas and be thankful for what you have and will have hugs all !!!

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Everyone Needs Best Friend

Everyone Needs A Best Friend

Morning !!! Friday yippie !!! lol .. I am little sore this morning i had procedure in doctors office yesterday.  I also ran to grocery store to get turkeys on sale at grocery store before all good Butter Ball turkeys were gone lol. I Got 2 been stocking up my freezer for company for holidays and have freezer in my fridge also loaded . Now i need to start baking and freezing cookies ect. My Christmas presents for grand kids are done !!

I like to get a hold of it early due to my RL Hubbie has cancer and is doing chemo and we have a RL home business that’s super busy .

You all have a most wonderful weekend !!

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